Job un-satisfaction.

Coming from a self employed family business I have worked since the age of thirteen. My formative years gave me a good work ethic and taught me to be loyal to my employers. I rarely took a sick day and often worked through my lunch break. Why then would I be replaced in a heartbeat and not notified of the decision? Welcome to the world of a returning mother to the workforce.

I had a good job that I enjoyed immensely when I became pregnant with my first child. My employer assumed that my pregnancy signalled the end of my working life and did not think to offer me unpaid maternity leave*. Did I mention my employer was a man?

I’m fairly certain the question “You’re not thinking of getting pregnant are you?” shouldn’t be included in a job interview.  Incredulous I know but my employer had just lost his previous manager to motherhood and so another woman was a gamble! Fortunately we (me and my working ovaries) had the most experience so we got the job!

A year later I too was pregnant, the difference being I wanted to take my entitled leave and return ten months later. My boss simply believed that I wouldn’t return, after all no other female employee had returned so why would I?

Not being married to a Murdoch or a Packer returning to work for me would be a financial necessity.

Ten months later I returned to work to find that my role had been assigned to somebody else on a permanent basis. You see my ‘maternity” cover replacement had left prematurely so they decided to promote the assistant manager.

He happened to be a good friend who was happy to share the role with me and we approached my employer with our working vision.

Our idea of job sharing wasn’t given any consideration although we had raised excellent points in how it could benefit our department. I was told that the company was moving in different directions and that there was an exciting role for me that would be ideal for my new three -day week.

I was given an office away from all my old colleagues where I sat day after day alone doing nothing! Great for slackers but I wanted to work, to talk to grown ups and stimulate my brain. I could get poked on Facebook at home!

My employer was attempting to placate me and asked me to think of what my new title might be. Strictly speaking it was his job to tell me what my job was making it even more apparent that there was no job!

In the end I returned to my old work place and took up office in the room where everybody got changed and ate their lunch. I wasn’t relinquishing my title though or my pay structure, my employer would simply have to pay two people for doing the same job!

Such a ridiculous situation when there was easily enough work for two managers over a period of seven days. We worked well together and divided our duties according to our strengths. We were able to cover holidays, sick days and countless meetings with ease. I had the respect of my team which was what mattered most to me.

 My employer only thought of me as a manager when it suited his own purposes. I think secretly he just wanted me to leave in case I decided to sue him for workplace misconduct. Maybe I should have sued him, maybe I should have left but deep down I convinced myself that I was just using him until baby number two came along. I knew that I wouldn’t be able to return once I had two children that needed childcare. Baby number two took a while so I ended up working for a further two years.

On finally leaving the company after nine years of service, my employer remarked, “really you left the last time.” Obviously I was just pretending to work for the last two years! Infuriatingly on many an occasion he did infer that I couldn’t possibly do my job as well as I could prior to having a baby.

Employers’ take note- mothering involves multi tasking, time management, a sense of humour and patience. These are all skills required in the workplace and whilst I may have possessed them prior to motherhood they were definitely much sharper on my return.  Mothers also generally want to be in the work place, working is “me time” with uninterrupted conversations, coffee breaks and private toilet trips!

My story is one of countless where women are given a rough deal on returning to work.  Some women I know have had no choice but to return to their position full time even though their job could be done in a shorter time frame. I was fortunate in that I could shorten my working week and spend valuable time with my baby.

 Ironically, going back to work made me realise what was important in life and for me work was not the answer. No longer would I stress over the small stuff when I had my own bundle of small stuff at home! My work home balance at this time was perfect regardless of how I was treated. I cherished the days with my little feller but loved the freedom that work gave me.

Now I am a stay at home mum and I have learnt that you can’t win either way. If you work you feel guilty for leaving your children, if you stay at home you feel guilty for not financially contributing to the household.

It is hard to get used to not working when it is something you have done all of your life. At first I felt guilty in answering questions about my work status but not any more! Staying at home with small children is hard work but it is rewarding too and I’m lucky to be in a financial situation where I can spend so much valuable time with them.

 * At this time in Australia there was no paid maternity leave. 

Sweet Little Lies.

The season of lying is over for another year! A time where you love every present from your in-laws, your partner pretends he knows what he bought his mother and every person over a certain age is complicit in a fantastical story about a chubby old guy in a red suit.

Parents tell their children lies all the time and Christmas is definitely the time to be selective with the truth! The whole Santa story keeps the magic alive both for them and for us. The bonus is that for months leading up to the big event behaviour can be kept in check by the threat of a Santa no show. In my house the laundry became the place where we did the washing and was completely redundant as a mini Alcatraz!

 Children will believe anything we tell them because they are innocent and in some ways we abuse this for our own means.  One of my friends told her children that Santa was watching them via the alarm sensors throughout her house.  She found her four year old confessing to the sensor that he hadn’t hit his sister on purpose! Another friend tells her kids that when the ice-cream van plays a tune it means they’ve run out of ice-cream and then there are my catholic friends and God knows what they’re telling their kids! Or does he/she?

Our children trust us so implicitly, that you really can feed them any old bullshit to keep them in line. My lie of choice involves spiders, which are always present in places that I would prefer my son not to explore! The downside of this is that he now has an irrational fear of all insects and this is something that I will have to rectify in years to come.

Last week I found myself telling my son that the dummy fairy is the sister of the tooth fairy and that she had broken in to the house and stolen his dummy! Luckily he’d forgotten about the tooth fairy that worked in a toyshop where previously he’d exchanged his daytime dummy for a toy garage.

Children like to ask questions so you need to get your story straight and think about tangents they may follow. I remember asking my mum why there were so many Santas; quick as a flash she had an answer so I never doubted her story. Children want to believe and why would you their loving parent lie to them anyway?

We often lie to our children to protect them from the harsh truth of a situation and in a few years time they will be doing exactly the same to protect us.

 I don’t want to incriminate myself here as my mum does read this blog but we all end up lying to our parents. Sometimes parents don’t want to hear the truth especially in those late teen years when alcohol, drugs and sex come in to the equation! We reason that it is so much kinder to be economical with the truth or if that fails we blame our friends!

Parents are their children’s first and most important teachers. We teach them all manner of things and they look to our behaviour as an example of how they will behave towards others.  Naturally they learn how to lie from us too so really we shouldn’t be too shocked when they start telling some porkies of their own

Plane Crazy

There is nothing worse than having to do a twenty- three hour flight with two children under the age of four. Okay maybe doing a bungee jump over crocodile infested waters and the rope breaking comes a close second!

I’ve never been a huge fan of flying but a few gins and catching up on all of those movies you missed at the cinema made it bearable. I used to feel sorry for those people chasing their toddlers up the aisle and irritation at the noise coming from wailing babies. Now I am that person and those are my children who are interrupting your night snooze or even worse kicking the back of your seat.

I recently flew to the UK for Christmas, I’ve done this flight a couple of times by myself with our eldest child but it was the first time since having two children. Conveniently my husband claimed he had to work so he was following on two weeks later!

We’d chosen night flights thinking the boys would sleep but the four year old was too excited and the baby just knew something was amiss to his normal nightly routine. The entire car trip to the airport was peppered with screaming and questions about where the airplane was and when were we getting on it.

As my husband waved us goodbye, I resembled the children’s game Buckaroo with hand luggage that was overflowing with bribery snacks, toys and anti-depressants! One gust of wind and I was sure to topple over!

Then the queuing began which has to be one of the worse parts of travelling.  There I was, overladen with bags, baby in the front carrier and a four year old loudly lamenting the fact that we were still not on the airplane. People began staring at us and I loudly remarked that my son was just expressing how we all felt. Luckily we had all visited the toilet otherwise it could have been a much more harrowing experience!

Eventually we reached the gate after more queuing and the boys could play on the floor. Unfortunately, the baby had just mastered the art of crawling and isn’t one for sitting still. This is the time when most responsible parents resort to the drugs, however, I thought I better refrain! Seriously, I refuse to give my children phenergen to render them unconscious, as I am both a sadist and secretly scared that it would have the opposite hyperactive inducing effect!  

The pitying looks from other passengers began and I could almost hear them sigh with relief when I walked past them on the plane. Luckily we had the bassinet seats, which meant we got more legroom and nobody sitting in front of us. They are probably the best seats on the plane but the catch is you generally have to be travelling with a baby!

Both boys slept for the majority of the first flight while I inhaled a bottle of red wine and snorted my way through Bridesmaids (I may have even slapped my thigh a couple of times). There were a couple of breast feeding on the aisle incidents where the baby was in danger of serious head trauma and lots of patting the baby to sleep which went against all my sleep school training.

On arriving in Hong Kong we had to depart the aircraft with all of our hand luggage and children! Even though we would be returning to the same seats, you could not leave anything on the plane. So we all departed the aircraft to join a queue to scan our bags that we had just brought off the plane in order to get back on the plane! Such a pointless exercise and I was not going to queue for thirty minutes carrying more weight than a Biggest loser contestant. So I sat down and watched every other sucker queue up while the children played.

Back on the plane and only thirteen hours to go! My four year old was great and apart from me having to slide his headphones back on to his head every five minutes, was easily entertained by ‘on demand’ viewing. The baby was hard work, no sleeping for him or me or the people sitting directly behind us!

Toilet time was fun with the three of us squeezing in to the cubicle and on one occasion the dummy went for a swim in the toilet bowl! It had a quick wash but ended back in the toddlers’ mouth a little bit faster than it would have at home. He’s too old for a dummy anyway I reasoned in my sleep deprived brain and it was his wee anyway!

After lots of child wrangling, the occasional flirt with the stewards (baby not me), checking of the flight path every two seconds and throwing food at baby in the bassinet, it was time to land. Naturally this is when my preschooler decided to fall in to a deep sleep! Our flight ended with him being carried off the plane by three airhostesses!

Having to fly with small children is not easy but it does give you something to focus on throughout a long flight. Airports would be easier to navigate if people with children were treated more kindly. As a lady at the airport remarked: ‘I can’t believe they didn’t usher you through first, in France people travelling with children are given priority.”  An unlikely occurrence in a country that has only just acknowledged paid maternity leave.

It might not have been like flying prior to children but its success can be measured by my answer to everybody's first question about any flight -
“ Bridesmaids.”

Stranger Danger!

Stranger danger is everywhere, if only my son were able to digest this information. Every person he meets is greeted with a ‘Hello, do you want to be my friend?' He is a sociable boy and it is adorable in one sense but also extremely alarming. If he were making friends with other children this wouldn’t concern me but his frequent question is generally aimed at adults.

A person wouldn’t have to promise my child any confectionary item or puppy viewing for him to gladly accompany them home!

I’ve tried starting the ‘chat’ about not talking to strangers but he is too young to understand. Danger and consequences are not within his realm of experience, as becomes apparent when approaching main roads! We live in a brutal world where you can lose somebody forever in an instant without as much as a goodbye. I can’t really get my head around it so I don’t expect him to.

I did lose him once for a whole two minutes in a park. I literally took my eyes off him for a second and he was gone. Frantically I ran around the park, heart going like the clappers asking everybody I saw if they had seen my son. He was going through his pigeon chasing stage and had just followed the birds. He was blissfully unaware of the torment I had gone through when I found him but I had aged five years in those two minutes!

You hear about the good old days when children could play in the street without any fears of being abducted. In England, women used to leave their babies in their prams outside the supermarket as they did their weekly shopping. My mum never left me as I had a really good pram and I don’t think she wanted to risk getting it nicked! A friend of mine was left at the butchers once and it was only when her mum got home that she realised her mistake! I like to imagine her going through her list saying ‘Now I’m sure I’ve forgotten something but I just can’t put my finger on it”.

 On some occasions my brother and I would wait up to forty minutes to be collected from school. You just couldn’t leave children on the side of the road these days but back then it was perfectly acceptable. I’d had the stranger danger chat though as on one occasion my parents’ car had broken down and they phoned the school. The kind elderly caretaker came with left over cakes to tell us the news and offered us a spot in the warm. I refused to believe him and we waited outside in the cold. My mum reprimanded me for not believing him but she had done her job well.

So how do we protect our children but at the same time not make them anti-social?  A big question and not nearly as heart meltingly cute as ‘do you want to be my friend?”

Steep Learning Curve Ahead!

When I went on maternity leave with my first child, I stupidly believed that I would have time to work on that screenplay I’d always wanted to write. I thought babies slept all day with the occasional feed; that I’d have so much time on my hands I’d be bored senseless.

I might have been bored but it wasn’t from having nothing to do!  Your life becomes one endless cycle of feeding, changing nappies and attempting to get them to sleep. If you’re really lucky you might have time to shower or have lunch. Before you know it your partner is coming through the door and you feel like you’ve done nothing all day. The house looks like a war zone and the dinner is in the Supermarket. You feel inadequate and judged, particularly if you’re still wearing your pyjamas.

Caring for a baby is a full time job with no allocated tea breaks or lunch hour. It is hard to anticipate how much work one tiny individual creates and something that even the most supportive of partners could not comprehend. This is why it is in everybody’s best interests to give your partner home alone with baby time. My advice would be to also leave your mobile at home otherwise you will probably receive a call before you’ve reversed the car out of the garage!

Nothing can prepare you for the reality of having a baby. You can read books, trawl the net and have strategies in place, but once they arrive it all goes out the window. This starts at the birth stage - when you have a fixed idea of how you want your labour to run, but the baby selfishly doesn’t want to work to your schedule. You might yearn for a natural, drug free birth but your little bundle of joy may have decided that squeezing themselves down the birth canal just isn’t them! It is a common mistake to not factor the baby’s personality in to the equation. You might think you’re the boss, but they are in control from the very beginning.

The most common assertion would-be parents make is that their baby will not be given a dummy. I was in this camp, but two sleepless weeks and two ravished breasts later I caved! I was also adamant that my child wouldn’t have fish fingers for dinner, but after preparing three refused dinners in one night, out came good old Captain Birdseye! You come to realise that you have to do what works for you and to throw all of your idealised visions of parenting in to the recycling. When they’re a little bit older you can reason with them but toddlers are not rational creatures.

Another biggie is discipline, having watched many a Super Nanny episode in my post university days, I thought I had all the answers.  I knew all about the naughty corner and imagined my child sitting quietly on a beanbag reflecting upon their misdemeanours.  I had been horrified by my sister-in-law’s method of locking her misbehaving toddler in the laundry and thought she was a monster.

Well, now I own a laundry with its very own lock and my son spends many a ‘time-out’ in there. I’m not convinced the laundry even works, but it stops me from smacking him and I’m able to sneak a biscuit whilst he’s locked up!

You start out with pre-conceived notions of what parenthood entails and what kind of parent you would like to be but it is rarely as you imagined. It’s like starting a job with little or no experience, you gradually get better at it but you’re constantly learning new skills. I think I’m working much harder than I ever did at work but there is definitely more job satisfaction. As for the screenplay, that might just have to wait a few more years.

Sleep Nazi.

It’s official; I am now a sleep Nazi! My whole day revolves around the sleeping pattern of a ten-month-old baby. Every day is planned with military precision so that my little cherub can get his two hours of cot time twice a day. On a typical park outing, Jake can have exactly ten pushes on the swing, three turns on the slide and one tantrum before being bribed back in to the car. I find the lure of a rainbow paddle pop in the garden always does the trick! Gone are the days when Alfie doesn’t sleep full stop or just falls asleep in the car. Some days those car sleeps would last up to three hours and I would have to check on him every ten minutes. So annoying when you’re trying to get around IKEA!

The reason for my newfound strictness and clock watching behaviour can be attributed to our success at sleep school. Possibly the best parenting decision I have made so far and I am not alone. Nearly everybody I know has taken at least one of their babies to sleep school.

 Sleeping is a learnt behaviour and not a skill that babies are born with. This is just one of the many pearls of wisdom I learnt from my time at Masada.

Control crying never worked for me at home because I only had the crying and not the control. When you are sleep deprived you’re just too fragile to see anything through and consistency is the key to success. Sleep school teaches you the difference between crying and grizzling. They do sound very similar at one, two, three, four and five in the morning! All you hear is a distressed child so your maternal instinct is to cuddle and placate your child. You will spend hours rocking them, patting them and doing whatever it takes until they fall asleep.  What they really need is to learn to fall asleep by themselves so you really need to resist your natural reactions. Control crying gets a bad press and needs to be done correctly. A child should not be left to cry itself to sleep but there is a difference between crying and protesting.

Masada has a ninety five percent success rate and one mother in our intake questioned the five percent who didn’t succeed. Ironically she left after two days! We all felt for this young mother whose child was so tired and resisted the Masada method. We tried to support her but she was too anxious and not ready to change her thinking. Her actions were understandable. The guilt racks your body as you leave your baby in their own little dark gaol like cell overlooked by the staff. A Sodom and Gomorrah pillar of salt moment flashes through your mind screeching ‘don’t look back.” We all went back ten minutes later just to make sure it wasn’t our baby screaming. You might be wondering how we could possibly sleep even though we were all so sleep deprived. Drugs that’s how, which the nurses kindly distribute on nights one and two.

The other good thing about Masada is the mothers you meet there who support each other through the program. Many cups of hot chocolate were sipped after the bubs were in bed and friendships were formed. An incredibly strong group of women who for one reason or another found themselves at Masada. Their honesty and sense of humour concerning their situation will always remain with me. As will the story of the husband who made his wife brush her teeth as she was giving birth to their son! Apparently her breath smelt so badly that he was unable to hold her hand while she pushed! I think you can probably guess how we all felt about him!

The program worked for us and I am happy to report that Alfie can now get himself to sleep. There are always going to be bad days but you just have to be consistent and keep your eye on the clock. So if I say I can’t meet you for lunch there is probably a very good reason.

Party time.

Children’s parties are not what they used to be. For one thing, every child has to win a present during pass the parcel. I distinctly remember crying at my ‘fifth’ because I didn’t win! My mother took me to one side and gave me a good hiding (you can’t do that anymore either). Okay she didn’t smack me, not at the party anyway but maybe later when my spoilt brat-ness reached its’ birthday peak.

Nowadays, you can hire somebody to come and entertain your kids while you sip on your champers in the background. VCA is producing some really excellent children’s entertainers who will do anything for the right money.

If you can’t afford a professional or an unemployable actor, you can do it yourself. There is so much information on the net, websites dedicated to making your little cherubs’ day the best it could possibly be. All you need is a theme and you can bet your bottom dollar some parent will have bragged about every minute detail on-line. There are some very competitive parents out there.

Another option is to limit the number of invited children and pay for them all to partake in some experience like circus skills, cookery or crocodile bating. There is also the play centre party where all the food and entertainment is provided. These parties look pretty tacky but the kids love them and there is no stress.

 This year I decided to host Jake’s party at home, every other year we have battled it out for the pergola at the local park. My theme for Jake’s fourth birthday was pirates and initially all I was thinking about was the costume. But this party caper is addictive and after doing a quick Google search, I had decided on a pirate ship cake and telescopes (cardboard rolls) positioned around the garden.  Then I was thinking about how I could turn our decking in to a ships’ galley and if I could make the kids walk the plank right in to our swimming pool. Thoughts about the party began to consume my mind, how to make it bigger and better. Scott would have to dress up as a pirate and maybe he could make some treasure chests with the kids as they arrived. Maybe we could give them all tatts, real ones naturally as I don’t want the parents to think we’re cheap. The ideas kept flowing and it was all because of one website that had a ratings system. These people had gone to extremes with their chosen theme, from the invites to what the children took home in their goodie bags.  The following party received an honourable mention:

‘…when they arrived, we had them decorate treasure chests at the start which involved cigar boxes painted gold with sequins, stick on jewels and glitter glue for them to use.  This activity gave them the chance to chat to the Good Pirate" and get to know him a little.  They then had to swear to obey their Captain and have a fantastic time. As a reward they got to have their picture taken as a crewmate. For this we used one of those things you put your head through and take a picture of you as a pirate. We got one off eBay quite cheaply. During the party I printed these off and put them into the treasure chest that they had made…. The Good Pirate told them a story.  He used pirate figures that I had crocheted especially for the story…..’

Now I could have paraphrased all of that but I wanted you to see how crazy some people are when it comes to their kids’ parties. Bear in mind this party only got an honorable mention!

I did make Scott dress up as the good pirate and quite frankly he looked like a paedophile. The moustache didn’t do him any favors but on the plus side reminded me of why he shouldn’t do Movember!  I did make a pirate ship cake that turned up trumps; I was so high fiving myself over its success all day! I come from a background of fabulous birthday cakes- my mum is simply amazing in the kitchen. Her cakes are legendary- I have had birthday cakes in the shape of a girl, a guitar and Australia to name but a few. This year she is planning on making Jake a cake in the shape of a dinosaur and she will pull it off.  I went with a ship because my reasoning was that it could always be a shipwreck! Thank you Google, you again have given me the power to rip off somebody else’s’ idea!

The party itself was a success and the children seemed to enjoy themselves but maybe next year I’ll take them all to a play centre!